Archive for March 10th, 2009

Today would have been my mom’s 69th birthday. March 10th is always a little sad for me. I always wonder what it would have been like to be an adult with my mom alive. It’s hard to believe that she has been gone for almost 18 years. Even though I was a grown woman (kind of) when she died, her mental state had been severely impaired for a long time prior to that and she always thought I was about 14. She also always thought my sister was me so I guess I had the better end of the deal.

She never met my husband. She never met my children. I like to think she knows I’m a mother and I really like to think she is proud of the job I’m doing. Most of the time I don’t really think about not having a mother. She had been in and out of my daily life since I was little so I suppose it’s just what’s normal to me. I do definitely feel little nuggets of envy when I see my friends with their mothers. Being a parent, I know that a mother loves her children no matter what. It’s such a strong and amazing bond. I miss having that bond with her. I miss her.

If you still have your mother, give her a hug and thank God that she’s still here for you to love and to love you. And if you don’t, well… here’s a hug from me.

Happy Birthday, Mom! I hope you and Grandma are having a big time up there. And say hi to Dad for me if you see him.

The warm weather this week has knocked me over the head with two things: it’s almost spring which means shorts and sleeveless shirts and it’s just three weeks until we go to Curacao which means a bathing suit. Yikes! I’ve been hiding my muffin top for a few months now but it’s time to get serious. My daughter is seemingly fascinated with muffin tops ever since she heard me on the phone discussing mine. I’ve assured her that it is not something sweet to eat. Unfortunately I pointed out my muffin top to her and she has since proceeded to show total strangers her nonexistent muffin top which of course involves her lifting up her shirt. But she does still have her little baby belly which is too cute for words.

Anyway…. back to my muffin top. My friend Leisa just told me about the Flat Belly Diet. The cover of the book says you can lose 15 lbs in just 32 days! So now I am on the Flat Belly Diet… at least for the 4-day anti-bloat jumpstart. I figure that will be better than nothing at this point! I don’t really need to lost 15 lbs but I’d definitely be happier with a flatter belly. Today is day one and so far… so good. It says no coffee but I did have half a cup which I guess didn’t get me off to the best start! Nothing like changing the rules with the very first bite. But come on… it’s my coffee. There’s only so much I’m willing to give up for a flat belly.

Breakfast was cornflakes, skim milk, applesauce and sunflower seeds and that’s a lot more than I usually eat for breakfast. Plus the Sassy Water. I’m pretty sure that all you really lose the first 4 days is a gob of water weight due to the large amount of Sassy Water you have to drink but I’m good with that. And the water is pretty good (cucumbers, lemons, ginger and mint mixed with water). It’s hard to go anywhere since I need to powder my nose quite frequently (Mrs. Blumer very much frowns on any term relating to pee). Lunch was turkey, one cheese stick and a pint of cherry tomatoes (and trust me… that’s a lot of tomatoes!). I think I get a “smoothie” this afternoon and then dinner. It’s actually a lot of food. I did however notice the Pinot Grigio is not on the list. Hmmm…..

I’ll keep you posted about the success/failure of the Flat Belly Diet and if I actually stick with it. I just keep telling myself… 3 weeks until bathing suit… 3 weeks until bathing suit… to which the part of me that isn’t terribly interested in the Flat Belly Diet responds…. but you’ll be in Curacao and no one knows you there. So far the good me is winning but it’s only been 1/2 a day. The book has a lot of recipes and a pretty thorough explanation of what’s going on but I haven’t read it yet. I saw 15 lbs in 32 days and just started doing it.

In the meantime, I’m back to walking and Pilates (or my version of Pilates since my very long body doesn’t really want to do some of those moves). And if nothing works, there’s always a Miracle Bathing Suit and vacation pictures from the neck up.